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Never love more the willful blindness and pain.
My compulsion had upended me- I had lost the plot, lost in shame?
My minds elation exploded, and into combustion it fumed
Then on my shoulders, my unconscious thought –
I looked in the rear view mirror and saw a the crow- it cried, “I care”
I drove away. Rushing to the next light forsaking boast.
“Never!” the car, it muffed and rattled
I let my thoughts drive on, my compulsion at the wheel.
“Never more! “
I kept driving. Confusion at the wheel.
I drove my cash to into resources.
I was trying to live in that moment-
The thought of my neglect came back to me
I care, I thought
”Never More!”
I looked in the rear view mirror-
I saw pain and resent-
Never!
I saw my reflection glance at me,
He was here but now,
“nevermore!”
I kept driving, my heart moving slower- the car driving faster
Fear takes over sadness
Nevermore!
Never!
I looked at the road- my panic and fear rectified themselves. I thought I had put them at ease.
More!
Reaching life, riding the tide of anxiety,
Never!
My heart bled
More!
My mind raged.
Life, a gamble, not even knowing what I would do if I should win
I was lost, and in that moment found.
Nevermore.
There was not a thought of anything at all,
In that moment of wistfulness was all that mattered
Never!
I tried to win,
More!
I left yet again
Nevermore!
More confident I was from the harkened illusions of past,
Never!
but now less confident in heart
More!
I knew I was straying and letting everything deemed important to me fall a part
Nevermore!
I kept driving, knowing the outcome.
In a broken state of mind, my hand rose to my head,
Never more!
Structure abandoned. substitution for love, guilt
A moment of clarity that lasted a second
Little did I know why or what I was doing
Nevermore
I felt pain
Never more
Beckoning to me, life. I carelessly and recklessly let myself know but leave
Nevermore
Never blame yourself, I thought
Nevermore
You were ignorant and willfully blind
Don’t take blindness and willfully die
Never, nevermore
I see now the actions I chose
This echoed in my mind
Thought of what was in between the lines
Never
No thought of broken hearts and how they heal.
More!
These thoughts I have come back to light now and never more
Irrational thoughts of security
Nevermore!
And in this time, things have come to be again and so too shall pass
“Never
more”
